Dear 2013

Dear 2013,

It's been a hell of a year.

And I mean that in the most flattering way.

I thought 2012 was the best year. And it was, as of January 1, 2013. But this past year has topped it in so many ways.

I started the year knowing the direction I wanted my life to follow. I had regained my self-worth and confidence in ways that I had lost somehow a few years before, and was ready to conquer - in every sense of the word, both personally and professionally. I was ready for something new. A challenge. A change of pace.

{Moving to Newport was the biggest change of 2013}

The beginning of the year began much like the previous year had ended - busy with work, yet it held great potential. After a few months of waiting, I found out I would make a relatively short move down to the Rhode Island coast. Though small in scale, it was a welcomed change for me, both in my personal life and for my career. I already had a great affection for Newport, but the last six months have made me truly fall in love with the town. It's a place I could picture myself living again in the future...because this July I will be picking up and moving my little world again - this time a much greater distance. To where? I don't know...but stay tuned :)

{The daffodil field a sweet man made in memory of his beloved wife}

2013 was also the year of really, really horrible, disastrous dates. I mean terrible. So bad, that in September, I was halfway convinced that I am meant to be single with a dog and adopt a baby when I'm 35. Someday, I will regale you with stories of these really ridiculous, inappropriate, and panic inducing events that have led me to my cynical view of dating, in general. Luckily, I can look back and laugh on my romantic misadventures of the past year, but Lord, please don't do that to me again.

Every time I begin to lose my confidence in the male population, one of my friends meets a wonderful man who is everything she ever dreamed of {and more}. Then I also look at my father, who is the most decent, humble, and loving man I've ever met, and then my faith in the other sex is restored, and I resolve that the right man will come along when I'm ready for it. Not a minute sooner. And let's face it, I'm not quite there yet. Maybe 2014 I will be, but if it's not, that's quite alright.

{True to myself, I visited many a vineyard and shared my love here and here.}

I'm admittedly in a very selfish point of my mid-twenties, and I think selfishness is perfectly acceptable at this point in life. Let me take a step back and clarify - selfishness in pursuing the life you want is acceptable; selfishness when it hurts and harms others and their wellbeing is not. I'm talking about the point in life where you make the choices for yourself and you alone. Doing what you want to do and choosing a path that will {hopefully} lead you to life-long happiness. There are certainly missteps on these adventures, and we often must change direction. But ultimately, you cannot make others happy if you are not happy yourself. So choose the way that brings you the most joy, and the rest will fall into place.

{Apple picking at it's best.}

2013, thank you. Thank you. Thank You. For the incredible blessings, unbelievable opportunities, and the extraordinary adventures you brought with you. I still have a lot of living, seeing, and adventuring to do in my life, and I know the next year will bring so many more opportunities my way.

So, here's to 2014. May you be just as wonderful {if not better} than the last twelve months.

It's OK - 2013 Edition

After a few weeks of absenteeism, I am very excited to link up with Amber and Neely for another round of It's OK Thursdays!

It's OK... ...that NYE was spent with my dog, a bottle of prosecco, chick flicks, and my pillow. It was exactly what I needed after a solid month of chaos. ...to despise winter weather after Christmas has passed. Is it spring yet? Brrrr! ...to have bought four pairs of shoes in the last 12 days. ...to still need a stretchy waistband because all those Christmas indulgences have not quite disappeared yet. ...that you wake up at 5 AM on your days off. Funny how it's physically impossible to get yourself out of bed at that time during the work week. ...to still prefer to read actual books and spend hours wandering through bookstores.  ...that your sleepless nights have been filled re-watching The O.C. starting with season one. It's almost Friday!!!

Out with the Old...

{One of my favorite spots I discovered this year on the Cape}

Another month gone...this time it's taking all of 2012 with it. 

This year has been extraordinary for me in so many ways.

Changes big and small have turned my life upside down and right side up. 

This year has been one of the best of my life.

I began to find myself again after a long time of uncertainty and soul searching. I made decisions and began directing my life exactly where I want it to go.

January of 2012 began a new journey in my life with a new career that still makes me excited to go to work each day.

March marked the ending of my six year relationship. I finally had the courage and confidence to end something that should have been over years before. The best, albeit tardy, decision of my life. March also brought one of the best weekends of my year, as I got to see one of my dearest friends in NYC.

April, May, and June were spent relaxing at the Cape and enjoying the spring and early summer sunshine. I also got my DSLR camera, which has been my best buddy this year.

July brought another one of my best friends up to the Northeast, and I got to show Laura around my beloved Boston and Cape Cod.

August allowed me to travel out West with my mother to visit my uncle. Exploring Montana and Yellowstone was on the of highlights of my year.

September through November were a blur. I loved soaking in the arrival of Fall and spending Thanksgiving with my crazy family.

December has been the craziest month so far. Work has exploded and opened the possibility of an exciting new adventure in 2013. I also ventured to NYC again with my Mother to see the Rockettes and experience the magic that is New York at Christmas.

These may seem so simple and slightly boring to the outsider, but those who know me know how much I have loved this year. How I love the person that I am, the job that I do, and the people that I have in my life.

I am constantly on the go, but I am running with purpose, direction and ambition. I know who I am and I know where I want my life to lead.

2013, I know you will not disappoint.

Sending all my love and prayers that you all have a wonderful New Year.